I love yoga.
Right now, I am more in love with it than I have ever been before. Not because I’m nailing the asanas (poses ) right now. If you want to be particular, I’m currently residing in a place between shitty and OK. I love it because of what it is doing to my life at the moment, especially in regards to clearing my head and reassigning my mood (otherwise known as dissapating dark thoughts.)
Since January, I’ve been getting back into a more regular yoga practice, thanks to my New Year’s Resolutions. One of the best ones I’ve ever made and I’m sticking to it because I’m not beating myself up over missing a few days. I’m sticking to shorter practice, one or two times a day, four or five times a week, so as it’s easy for me to fit it into my schedule. And it’s working wonders on my productivity, my body and my mind.
Today, I started to feel really scrampy. Dark clouds of grumpiness threatened to sabotage the rest of my day and night. They had been slowly creeping in for hours. Fight as I might, I was loosing the battle and the sunshine in my soul was retreating. Getting home after work, my mind raced with all the writing, work, cleaning to do and I felt heavy.
That’s when I decided I wasn’t doing anything before I did yoga.
Choosing a longer practice and my favourite CD of mediation sitar music (currently played no less than five times a day) I began clearing my mind and finding my center. Easier than I thought it would be, in fact. Pesky thoughts tried to creep in but I banished them away and regained focus with my body.
Practice done and I feel clearer and calmer. Stress has been relived and I can breathe again. Heavy feeling is gone and I’m replaced with a content lightness. My focus is back. I feel good and my body feels limber. It’s as if I am starting a new day and I love it.
Most importantly, those scrampy, nasty, obsessive thoughts have been quieted. The dark gloomy clouds dissolved by the light and positivity is residing once again in my brain.
It isn’t just immediately after practice that I am noticing changes from my newly rediscovered dedication to yoga. Instinct is awakened and lately I’m finding I’m able to listen to that voice of intuition that leads us in the right way. My body is getting tighter and smaller and on a daily basis I’m able to use my hours more productively. The exhaustion I was feeling before Christmas is gone and I have the ability to enjoy a normal adult style life where my kid and I don’t go to bed at the same time. Plus, I’m taking time to relax more. Reading those books and watching those movies I’ve been dying to dive into. By doing yoga on a regular basis I’m making positive life changes in every aspect of my life and I love it. And it’s not just asana practice, I’ve been motivated to start self-study again and am reading many books.
Today, I didn’t want to do anything. I wanted to hide in that impending misery and indulge my demons. But I didn’t. I chose positive action for a positive result and now I’m more than energized to hang out with my baby girl when I pick her up (given she’s up for hanging out with me.)
And it seems as if the Universe is rewarding me for my strength of will. Out of the blue, a fisherman friend of mine called. He had fresh halibut for me, straight from the boat, and he was bringing it over. Good food to feed a healthy body and mind, what better reward you for keeping your soul healthy.