The past month has been one of the most emotionally trying I’ve had in a while. My father died, my daughter and I found him, my car got rear ended, I have whiplash because of it, and I may have screwed up a new relationship that I really liked. Yup, last month will definitely be ranking up there in the top ten of suckiest months ever.
But today the firecracker in me woke up and gave me shit. This could have been instigated by my watching “The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo” last night (original Swedish version.) Deep down I am more like that girl than a victim who stays a victim. When things get touch I fight. However, lately I’ve had the devastatingly depressing “boo hoo poor me” song on replay. Time for that tune to change.
To enforce this change, I need to truly acknowledge what is keeping me stuck in despair, thus, keeping me from healing. It’s a challenge anyone in the aftermath of tragedy has to find the strength to do. Otherwise you loose yourself. A tragedy in itself.
So the question: what is keeping me from healing?
The answer: the negative scrampies.
Negativity comes in some many forms it’s hard for us to even realize how much negative shit is in our heads, our bodies, our lives. We, as humans, tend to gravitate to negative behaviours when things go wrong or turn tragic. Alcohol, junk food (aka comfort food), smoking… even our thoughts turn toxic. Negatives surround us. Fear engulfs us, anger consumes us, and it gets hard to snap out of it.
After a month, I’m snapping out of it. I have my beautiful toddler to think about. She is my inspiration to heal faster than I have in the past and thus I have set my plan in motion.
The Plan: get rid of all the scrampies and bring back the positive vibes
- Step 1: a 30-day cleanse to get the toxins out of my body – no meat, dairy, gluten, refined sugars or processed anything, fish is ok but only local, lots of raw veg & juicing a must.
- Step 2: increase cardio excercise to get the toxins moving out of my body – let’s face it, part of me is mad at the world; cardio is one way to get some of that angry energy out in a positive way, with a positive payback.
- Step 3: back to yoga to get the toxins out of my mind – I’m limited in the yoga I can do right now because of the whiplash, but I’ve narrowed some asanas that are good to strengthen the area that’s been injured so these are my focus (only do this with supervision unless you’ve had some sort of training and always listen to your body)
- Step 4: quiet the negativity – for the next month I vow to turn all those frowns upside down, feel the sadness then let it go, and seriously stop seeing the bad in everything; there’s too much beauty in this life to not see it and being angry totally gives you wrinkles.
This is the plan. It will take strength and determination but it can be done. And there is no fail. Simply making the plan is a success in itself.